isolation
Saturday TV is so predictable that it numbs my brains
I zone in mind of nothing
Please god, something different than you previously edited look at happiness makes me frustrated.
Anger is known company in the last 19 months.
It grows in my heart, feeding my loneliness.
I am alone
I light another cigarette, I have no hope left other than the quick idea that these cigarette one that ends my pain will be.
I'm very good with logic and common sense
I would understand if something bad happened to destroy my life in a way, but that's just not the case ...
It was something so small and stupid in comparison to other events in my life.
It was what happened after the so-called small case that my fate is sealed
(A fate so easily fixed)
Ego and anger are the only things stopping my progress.
Silly silly arguments that have caused life worth of damage.
I close my eyes
I try to pretend that my life is not ruined.
I think about everything I've fought, everyone I care about.
I think of the time I invested years of patience all that trouble and concern, I am a proud father before I can take solace that I remember all me it was for nothing
All that was demolished careful building in a careless, irrational decision.
It would drive a person insane, actually did.
I'm afraid of people now, I panicked when a woman approached me
I could not leave fast enough the room, I walk away and not look back.
Here in this house, which is where I stay, isolated and alone no one sees me, nobody mentions it's like I do not exist.
At least they can not hurt me here.