Xikay - Walking Paradox
I'm a walking paradox
I crave the attention, but hate their vicious talking mouths
I'm a shoe without laces
And I never spent time with the favorites
I smile with pride at the mirror while I look at myself in contempt
I crave nothing more than happiness, but this sadness makes me feel so content
I never cared what people thought of me, but it's also the fight in which I bleed
I know what you think of me
It's displayed on the canvas of your face, you see
I'll never let you get away from me
If all you ever do is expect bad things from me
I'm living fantasy
Otherwordly to the people around me
Can't bring myself to act their way
Cause it pains my soul to slave away for their society
No, you can't expect a lot
Don't get me started, you will drop
I may put myself as last
But when push comes to shove, I know who to cast
I'm a walking paradox
I care for humans way too much
And they're the ones my heart doesn't want to touch
Their hate and lust
They crave too much
And in my service they trust
Refuse them, I can not
Cause I'm a walking paradox
I'm a walking paradox
Hit in the head by my mom too much
Running outside in bleeding socks
Yelling "strangers beat me up"
To the cops who picked me up
Cause I didn't want mom to cut out my nuts
Like she threathened me once
I'm a walking paradox
I talk too much, but I hate to speak
I eat too little, but I love to feast
I cry too little, but I do love tears
They clean the soul, but not the fears
I'm a walking paradox
It's fearless, the way I seem
But it's anxieties only, inside of me
I want too scream, but I hate the noise
I'm a walking paradox
I'm scared of the dark, but in love with the night
I used to love love, but then it took flight
Lonely every night, but alone in right mind
Writing lyrics, with no music in sight
Only in mind